Well, yesterday was our 2 year anniversary. We didn't do anything b/c I worked 3-11pm and we're celebrating next week. Well I told Ry that I didn't want to give gifts till we go away, but I came home to the most amazing roses in this gorgeous vase arrangement. He called the florist, who was there doing stuff for a funeral, and they stayed re-opened late for him (after he got off work)!!! What a guy! They are this gorgeous terra cotta color *ry's description* and just so beautiful! I wasn't expecting anything so it was really nice.
Then today I am having coffee in the AM with my friend Inder, and I get a phone call... "Jen come home! I've pinched a nerve in my back and can't move!!" OMG! So luckily I was just down the hill, I rush home, and Ry's sprawled on the bed. He was towelling off after his shower and something just pinched I guess.. so I help him into the car, which was OH so painful for him, take him to his chiro, who proceeds to tell him there is nothing really he can do for something as severe as Ry's back. So Ry's been bed-ridden all day and I booked off work to take care of him. Ugh.. I feel so awful for him! It's horrible seeing someone you love in so much pain.. I can't imagine how I will cope when we're older! I almost cried a couple times today b/c there was nothing I could really do other than give him his ice and some ibuprofen...
*sigh*
I hope he feels better soon!!
But just a note to Mel.. OMG! I could not be a nurse! You're a saint!! LOL!
Off to help my patient..
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Monday, October 09, 2006
Happy Gobble Gobble Day!
Just wanted to wish everyone a happy Thanksgiving :)
This weekend was nice, I have been off since last Tuesday morning at 7am! It's been awesome! I got so much done... cleaned the house, did my grocery shopping, got to spend time with Ry... my mom and step dad came for a visit... had coffee with my gf from Reitmans I haven't seen in FOREVER... just did tons!
Mom came with me and Ry to Tara's (his sister) house for thanksgiving dinner Saturday. It was really fun, and she got to meet his mom and such... it wasn't too bad. *phew*
LOL!
Anyhoo.. I have to do some ironing for work, have a shower, go to the gym perhaps, maybe not in this order :P then to work!
Hope you all have a great day, enjoy the week. I hope it's as beautiful everywhere else as it is here, gorgeous, clear, crisp, and sunny!
Love you! :)
This weekend was nice, I have been off since last Tuesday morning at 7am! It's been awesome! I got so much done... cleaned the house, did my grocery shopping, got to spend time with Ry... my mom and step dad came for a visit... had coffee with my gf from Reitmans I haven't seen in FOREVER... just did tons!
Mom came with me and Ry to Tara's (his sister) house for thanksgiving dinner Saturday. It was really fun, and she got to meet his mom and such... it wasn't too bad. *phew*
LOL!
Anyhoo.. I have to do some ironing for work, have a shower, go to the gym perhaps, maybe not in this order :P then to work!
Hope you all have a great day, enjoy the week. I hope it's as beautiful everywhere else as it is here, gorgeous, clear, crisp, and sunny!
Love you! :)
Do you ever wonder what went wrong?
Sometimes I wonder; why was our friendship so easy for you to forget?
I think back to what happened and think that cannot possibly be the reason we do not talk anymore. I apologized, not for everything, but for what I felt I needed to, and tried to explain things I thought were simple misunderstandings. I realized you were hurt and felt badly for that, but it was not something I had done intentionally. Reflecting, I believe there had to have been something more, something bigger, that you did not tell me about, which stops you from talking to me. If so why did you not tell me?? You have forgiven others for much more painful and intentional things that they have done to you. You have forgiven them more than once, sometimes too many times to count. You have forgiven things they have purposefully said to hurt you, you forgave, because that is who you are. You are a wonderful, caring, and forgiving person who values her friends. Yet, you cannot seem to forgive me, why?
Is it because I did not want to see you hurt in a relationship that seemed to be forever hurting you? Maybe, but I thought we had gone beyond that and gotten past it, and I tried to understand, and just support you. No, I wasn’t sitting there with my pompoms but listened to you, and wanted you to be happy, and I thought you and I both understood that.
I really don’t think that’s what it was… but maybe I am wrong.
Maybe I am completely off by thinking that there had to have been something bigger for you to have given up so easily… maybe you thought I gave up? I never gave up, I just did not want to apologize for things that I did not think I had to. I tried to make you understand where I was coming from, is that why? I didn’t say, “I’m sorry, you’re right, I am a horrible person, I did horrible things, and it’s all my fault, please forgive me.” Is that what you wanted to hear? Is that why?
After that I did not say anything more, I did not fight to try and talk to you, because I thought we would move beyond it. I thought you would talk to me when you were ready. I did not know that whatever happened hurt you so deeply… but maybe not.
Maybe it was something more, and you felt I wasn’t the kind of friend you wanted anymore. Maybe you did not value the friendship we had anymore. Things had changed, yes, I was busy, we didn’t see each other as much, but we were trying… at least, that’s what I thought? I know I had changed, but I was never trying to leave you behind, I was just trying to reach my goals. I wanted to be a better person, and experience new things, different things, and I was hoping you would be there with me as you had in the past.
I have no idea what really happened, because it just does not make sense to me.
I don’t know if you felt that I used you, or that I had been treating you like shit, or maybe you just don’t care that I’m not in your life now?
I honestly don’t know, because I have never once wanted to hurt you. I know you were friends with other people for longer before you forgave them for all the crap they put you through… maybe that’s part of why it’s so hard for you to forgive me. It is not like we were friends forever, but for some reason I never thought that mattered. From day one I felt like our friendship was different. I thought we could talk about everything, that we would be walking around when we were older, looking so great, giggling about the other older ladies that had made the mistake of dying their hair blue. We would be friends for years to come, that’s what I thought. Despite what you may have thought, what you may think, I don’t give a shit about what you have or don’t have. I have no idea if that is what is you think, and I can’t imagine how you would ever come to think that. I thought you knew that I loved you, your family, and that I loved you for who you are not for what you have... but I guess not.
One day maybe you will tell me what happened, maybe you won’t, maybe you don’t even give it a second though. You were my friend, you did so much for me, and I tried to do the same for you. I tried to be there for you, but I guess you think I wasn’t.
I guess I never thought either of us would give up so easily on our friendship, because it meant the world to me, and I thought it meant the same to you. Maybe I was wrong.
I think back to what happened and think that cannot possibly be the reason we do not talk anymore. I apologized, not for everything, but for what I felt I needed to, and tried to explain things I thought were simple misunderstandings. I realized you were hurt and felt badly for that, but it was not something I had done intentionally. Reflecting, I believe there had to have been something more, something bigger, that you did not tell me about, which stops you from talking to me. If so why did you not tell me?? You have forgiven others for much more painful and intentional things that they have done to you. You have forgiven them more than once, sometimes too many times to count. You have forgiven things they have purposefully said to hurt you, you forgave, because that is who you are. You are a wonderful, caring, and forgiving person who values her friends. Yet, you cannot seem to forgive me, why?
Is it because I did not want to see you hurt in a relationship that seemed to be forever hurting you? Maybe, but I thought we had gone beyond that and gotten past it, and I tried to understand, and just support you. No, I wasn’t sitting there with my pompoms but listened to you, and wanted you to be happy, and I thought you and I both understood that.
I really don’t think that’s what it was… but maybe I am wrong.
Maybe I am completely off by thinking that there had to have been something bigger for you to have given up so easily… maybe you thought I gave up? I never gave up, I just did not want to apologize for things that I did not think I had to. I tried to make you understand where I was coming from, is that why? I didn’t say, “I’m sorry, you’re right, I am a horrible person, I did horrible things, and it’s all my fault, please forgive me.” Is that what you wanted to hear? Is that why?
After that I did not say anything more, I did not fight to try and talk to you, because I thought we would move beyond it. I thought you would talk to me when you were ready. I did not know that whatever happened hurt you so deeply… but maybe not.
Maybe it was something more, and you felt I wasn’t the kind of friend you wanted anymore. Maybe you did not value the friendship we had anymore. Things had changed, yes, I was busy, we didn’t see each other as much, but we were trying… at least, that’s what I thought? I know I had changed, but I was never trying to leave you behind, I was just trying to reach my goals. I wanted to be a better person, and experience new things, different things, and I was hoping you would be there with me as you had in the past.
I have no idea what really happened, because it just does not make sense to me.
I don’t know if you felt that I used you, or that I had been treating you like shit, or maybe you just don’t care that I’m not in your life now?
I honestly don’t know, because I have never once wanted to hurt you. I know you were friends with other people for longer before you forgave them for all the crap they put you through… maybe that’s part of why it’s so hard for you to forgive me. It is not like we were friends forever, but for some reason I never thought that mattered. From day one I felt like our friendship was different. I thought we could talk about everything, that we would be walking around when we were older, looking so great, giggling about the other older ladies that had made the mistake of dying their hair blue. We would be friends for years to come, that’s what I thought. Despite what you may have thought, what you may think, I don’t give a shit about what you have or don’t have. I have no idea if that is what is you think, and I can’t imagine how you would ever come to think that. I thought you knew that I loved you, your family, and that I loved you for who you are not for what you have... but I guess not.
One day maybe you will tell me what happened, maybe you won’t, maybe you don’t even give it a second though. You were my friend, you did so much for me, and I tried to do the same for you. I tried to be there for you, but I guess you think I wasn’t.
I guess I never thought either of us would give up so easily on our friendship, because it meant the world to me, and I thought it meant the same to you. Maybe I was wrong.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Finally it works!
This is our beautiful angel little Claire bear! She was sooooo sleepy after being in another wedding! LOL! She turned 2 in July..
And this is Shona's gorgeous, squishy chub monster Quinn... he's 3 months old!
And this is Shona's gorgeous, squishy chub monster Quinn... he's 3 months old!
I love Autumn and I LOVE days off!
So let us see... I think I will try and throw together a real live post! Here goes!!!
I just got through working 7 graveyards. Wow, that was the funnest thing I have EVER done! And when I say funnest, think, fun as in poking out my own eyes with a plastic spoon fun! Meh, what can I say... it's a job, it's closer to what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, and it's allowed me to start a real savings plan for the future... so that makes me happy :)
I still really want to get into policing, but there are SO many things to consider now. Do I really want to take 6 months out of living and go through more training? Sure... but where? And how will that affect my relationship with Rylan? I'm sure we would make it work, but what if we have kids? If I have kids I can't imagine leaving them behind... so no matter what, I know that if I am going to change my career I most definately have to do it in the next year or so. Oh well... I still have time! No kids yet, just my furry ones and Ry ;)
Speaking of Ry, things are going amazingly! We went ring shopping the other day!!! *beams* I am sooooooo happy! It's not going to happen tomorrow or anything... but maybe the end of the year, beginning of next... really it COULD be tomorrow and I would be surprised. Either way, whenever it does happen I will be super surprised, super happy, and of course, super in love :D
We went to Spence Diamonds and the woman who helped us was awesome. Ry actually picked out the ring that I fell in love with! *cheers for Ry* I'm not sure how much, and I don't know if he bought it then (he says he didn't.. b/c that would be kind of weird), or when he's going to buy it.... but it's picked... I almost cried in the bathroom I was so overwhelmed! LOL! I'm silly, but I'm sure that's not too shocking since I actually am quite the cry baby when it comes to stuff like that :)
I can't wait to call everyone and tell them about my wonderful news when it happens!
So far no plans or anything. It won't be for a couple of years, just for all you curious folk ;) Probably late 2008, 2009 or something. I dunno.. we'll work that all out after! We have TONS of time :) Just thought I would share that news with you all!
Got to see my friend Chrissy yesterday. I haven't seen her in FOREVER! We kept trying to meet up and our schedules didn't match.. it was crazy! We finally got together for lunch and hung out at her new place for a bit. It was so nice to see her! Now I have a few more people to meet up with that I haven't seen in ages... can't wait for that! It's so hard working shift work and trying to meet up with people. When they think we can hook up, my schedule changes, and we have to try and find a NEW time to meet! Bah! Oh well!! I am going for coffee with Liane today which will be great! I don't think I've seen her since the beginning of the year! Time sure has been flying by! Another aspect of 7 day work weeks.. by the time you've worked 2 boards it's almost the end of the month!
OH! We're going to get a puppy :) In May next year the LG rep's hoping to have more pups (since she has a boy and a girl she breeds) so we've reserved one! We could probably find one sooner, but we know her dogs and we LOVE them! They a really cute, super friendly, and have GREAT personalities... we're hoping for a black boy who will be named... Buster! :D
Let's see.. what else.. treated myself to a facial the other day.... it was great! The esthitician was SO good! She started explaining my skin right from the minute she walked in, and the whole thing was almost 2 hours! It was great, except at the end I was getting a bit anxious to leave! LOL! I can only handle so much relaxation.
The weather has been so amazing! Sunny, blue skies, crisp fall air... I love this time of year! The leaves changing colour, flowers still blooming, squirrels running around hoarding their peanuts and barrying them in my yard! LOL! Sorry, Nalla is barking at them as they are running through our yard right now!
Hmmm...
What else.. ooh! My mom is coming to town this weekend.
I'm looking forward to it, but it's unfortunately become somewhat drama filled.. but when isn't my family full of drama?? LOL! At least, I think she's still coming... she's not feeling well (stupid cold that's going around)... so we'll have to see how she's feeling in the next couple of days. Tara (Ry's sister) is having a big dinner on Saturday! Can't wait! I get to see my gorgeous niece and her cuz (Tara's bfs Sister's son) Quin! Too cute! I will try and post pics if Blogger is feeling cooperative later.. since it is NOT right now! I am making pumpkin pie... although I have to say I'm going to be lazing and I BOUGHT my crusts... ooh! Such a rebel :P
I love my new job.. it lets me read and read and read... HAHAHAH!
I finally read Confessions of a Shopaholic, that my cousin Trista leant me... now I bought the others off ebay! For SUCH a great price! I got the bigger books, that are regularly $16.95 each, for less than $8 each after shipping! YAY! And they're in almost mint condition! It's so awesome... gotta love ebay! I know Mel will second that ;)
I should get up and get ready for my day... I've been sitting here, enjoying the sun outside, updating some stuff, chilling with my pug.. :) It's great to have days off...
I just want to say hi to everyone.. and that I'm thinking of you! Hope everyone is doing well!
Have a great turkey day!
I just got through working 7 graveyards. Wow, that was the funnest thing I have EVER done! And when I say funnest, think, fun as in poking out my own eyes with a plastic spoon fun! Meh, what can I say... it's a job, it's closer to what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, and it's allowed me to start a real savings plan for the future... so that makes me happy :)
I still really want to get into policing, but there are SO many things to consider now. Do I really want to take 6 months out of living and go through more training? Sure... but where? And how will that affect my relationship with Rylan? I'm sure we would make it work, but what if we have kids? If I have kids I can't imagine leaving them behind... so no matter what, I know that if I am going to change my career I most definately have to do it in the next year or so. Oh well... I still have time! No kids yet, just my furry ones and Ry ;)
Speaking of Ry, things are going amazingly! We went ring shopping the other day!!! *beams* I am sooooooo happy! It's not going to happen tomorrow or anything... but maybe the end of the year, beginning of next... really it COULD be tomorrow and I would be surprised. Either way, whenever it does happen I will be super surprised, super happy, and of course, super in love :D
We went to Spence Diamonds and the woman who helped us was awesome. Ry actually picked out the ring that I fell in love with! *cheers for Ry* I'm not sure how much, and I don't know if he bought it then (he says he didn't.. b/c that would be kind of weird), or when he's going to buy it.... but it's picked... I almost cried in the bathroom I was so overwhelmed! LOL! I'm silly, but I'm sure that's not too shocking since I actually am quite the cry baby when it comes to stuff like that :)
I can't wait to call everyone and tell them about my wonderful news when it happens!
So far no plans or anything. It won't be for a couple of years, just for all you curious folk ;) Probably late 2008, 2009 or something. I dunno.. we'll work that all out after! We have TONS of time :) Just thought I would share that news with you all!
Got to see my friend Chrissy yesterday. I haven't seen her in FOREVER! We kept trying to meet up and our schedules didn't match.. it was crazy! We finally got together for lunch and hung out at her new place for a bit. It was so nice to see her! Now I have a few more people to meet up with that I haven't seen in ages... can't wait for that! It's so hard working shift work and trying to meet up with people. When they think we can hook up, my schedule changes, and we have to try and find a NEW time to meet! Bah! Oh well!! I am going for coffee with Liane today which will be great! I don't think I've seen her since the beginning of the year! Time sure has been flying by! Another aspect of 7 day work weeks.. by the time you've worked 2 boards it's almost the end of the month!
OH! We're going to get a puppy :) In May next year the LG rep's hoping to have more pups (since she has a boy and a girl she breeds) so we've reserved one! We could probably find one sooner, but we know her dogs and we LOVE them! They a really cute, super friendly, and have GREAT personalities... we're hoping for a black boy who will be named... Buster! :D
Let's see.. what else.. treated myself to a facial the other day.... it was great! The esthitician was SO good! She started explaining my skin right from the minute she walked in, and the whole thing was almost 2 hours! It was great, except at the end I was getting a bit anxious to leave! LOL! I can only handle so much relaxation.
The weather has been so amazing! Sunny, blue skies, crisp fall air... I love this time of year! The leaves changing colour, flowers still blooming, squirrels running around hoarding their peanuts and barrying them in my yard! LOL! Sorry, Nalla is barking at them as they are running through our yard right now!
Hmmm...
What else.. ooh! My mom is coming to town this weekend.
I'm looking forward to it, but it's unfortunately become somewhat drama filled.. but when isn't my family full of drama?? LOL! At least, I think she's still coming... she's not feeling well (stupid cold that's going around)... so we'll have to see how she's feeling in the next couple of days. Tara (Ry's sister) is having a big dinner on Saturday! Can't wait! I get to see my gorgeous niece and her cuz (Tara's bfs Sister's son) Quin! Too cute! I will try and post pics if Blogger is feeling cooperative later.. since it is NOT right now! I am making pumpkin pie... although I have to say I'm going to be lazing and I BOUGHT my crusts... ooh! Such a rebel :P
I love my new job.. it lets me read and read and read... HAHAHAH!
I finally read Confessions of a Shopaholic, that my cousin Trista leant me... now I bought the others off ebay! For SUCH a great price! I got the bigger books, that are regularly $16.95 each, for less than $8 each after shipping! YAY! And they're in almost mint condition! It's so awesome... gotta love ebay! I know Mel will second that ;)
I should get up and get ready for my day... I've been sitting here, enjoying the sun outside, updating some stuff, chilling with my pug.. :) It's great to have days off...
I just want to say hi to everyone.. and that I'm thinking of you! Hope everyone is doing well!
Have a great turkey day!
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
He Works in Mysterious Ways
My thoughts and prayers go out to you Carrie and Mark.
They lost their boy Caleb after a difficult birth... he was just shy of 24 weeks.
He's with you always, watching you, and knowing how much you loved him, and how much you always will.
May God be with you and bring you closer together during this difficult period.
*hugs*
They lost their boy Caleb after a difficult birth... he was just shy of 24 weeks.
He's with you always, watching you, and knowing how much you loved him, and how much you always will.
May God be with you and bring you closer together during this difficult period.
*hugs*
Monday, October 02, 2006
Wow.. so I haven't really been on here in a while.. and honestly this is not going to be some big update.. I'm on my last night of graveyards tonight (out of 7 in a row) and I'm pretty bagged today!
Just wanted to post this link here... http://www.canadianmums.ca This is a really cool site that Ry's sister and her friend created. It's a bunch of links to sites that are geared to Canadiam moms, and they have a bunch of forums.. http://www.canadianmums.ca/forum/index.php that are SOOO great! I'm not a mom, but I joined (you have to to be able to read the forums)... and I LOVE it! Yes, there is a lot of chat about kids, and pregnancy... but there is a lot of chatting about everyday life and such. And let me tell you.. it's great to see all the pics of the beautiful babies and such :) It's nice to have such a great bunch of ladies to talk to... so I would HIGHLY recommend you join if you're a mom, expecting, trying to conceive, or just want some cool ladies to talk to :)
And I promise.. I will post more in the next few days :)
Just wanted to post this link here... http://www.canadianmums.ca This is a really cool site that Ry's sister and her friend created. It's a bunch of links to sites that are geared to Canadiam moms, and they have a bunch of forums.. http://www.canadianmums.ca/forum/index.php that are SOOO great! I'm not a mom, but I joined (you have to to be able to read the forums)... and I LOVE it! Yes, there is a lot of chat about kids, and pregnancy... but there is a lot of chatting about everyday life and such. And let me tell you.. it's great to see all the pics of the beautiful babies and such :) It's nice to have such a great bunch of ladies to talk to... so I would HIGHLY recommend you join if you're a mom, expecting, trying to conceive, or just want some cool ladies to talk to :)
And I promise.. I will post more in the next few days :)
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